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The First Year

by wild okra

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1.
Those late night cries Whose source I cannot find And your pleading eyes Asking so much from me When I should know more It should be tattooed on my soul But I just tell you to stop See I do not have what you need Inconsolable Gripping my shirt I need this not to be As you gaze around the room Hoping and waiting for relief You endure so much More than anyone should And I lose my patience I do not have what you need You need more from me I need to be more than I am Languages I don't speak That keep me from you There is darkness and anger Where patience and tenderness should be When I look in your eyes I feel inadequate Not sure where I get The things I need To love you You are calm now And you're drifting off to sleep I'm left to deal with my lack And you offer me relief Everything is fucked up And the road ahead is steep As I fear for the future I think you might have What we need
2.
Grow Right 02:19
We are all full Reading in silence In the same room And she sleeps at peace This is so full And implies So much that I Want to believe I want to be true Clutch my finger Rub your face In my beard We must not despair We will die And we might lose But in this We must not despair You are so strong Came to save us And we're cutting your head Open again So grow right Little bird And fly
3.
A Lament 03:59
Forgive us The reach of our arms The size of our hands We Lament Forgive us The length of our stride The weight of our feet We Lament Forgive us The greed in our eyes The depth of our gaze We Lament Forgive us The words of our mouths The shortness of breath We Lament Forgive us The pace of our lives The hands on our clocks The reach of our arms The size of our hands Forgive us As we Forgive Those Who Trespass Against us
4.
Last Fight 05:25
I don't know if I have much fight left in me All escape routes seem closed to me If there's a way out it's through A door that I can't find I don't know how much fight I have left I don't know how much life will be left to us All the sacred earth is laid waste for us There is a place to live but It's only in my mind I don't know how much life we have left There must be a way to find hope for you I want to believe this world will take care of you The smallest break a brief glimpse In the eyes of a child There must be a way to find hope Is there some forgiveness left for us What right do we have to the way prepared for us In awe of what we've made We laugh into the wind I don't know if there's forgiveness left But will we try Will we try Can we walk away And leave this shit behind To the woods, to the land Run screaming but hand in hand Muster the strength we need To deal out one more blow Will we try
5.
The Path 03:22
There is death I must see Because I know Death is not our enemy There are paths we must walk Both by night and by day Where ash that was green Will soon blow away There is no straight line No beginning no end No fence between waking and dreaming We will go til we don't Sun rises and sets At what point does laughter turn to weeping And weeping to laughter again My best to you Escape if you must But I think I am home Death I must see Death that must find me Death I must cause And walk my path to it's end
6.
We Will Try 03:01
I want to run to the hills I don't want to run slowly I want to cut out the parts of me that whine We cannot do this Not even together But we will try Oh, we will try I want to wade In the clear waters To have my hand held And my fears shared We cannot do this Not even together But we will try Oh, we will try I want to tear These buildings to rubble I want to touch the earth With my own hands I want to wake up Early in the morning To greet the sunrise And the morning dew I want to lash out In furious anger I want to retreat In sorrow and shame I want my friendships To last forever I want to live And then to die We cannot do this Not even together The world goes Where it will go We will die separate And unforgiven But we will try Oh, we will try
7.
12 Months 04:43
And now we find ourselves here At the end of the first year Not knowing what is ahead Or where to go 12 months 4 seasons 3 lives How do I breathe life Into a song For us Do I start With that night When you couldn't be there Or that moment When I held her Where you could just see her Or when we wheeled you upstairs And you held her For the first time How to put a year into a song When they told us For the first time It wouldn't be alright When you said Strong and committed You'd be willing to die Separated day after day And you told me You thought you'd go crazy And I was at home I wrote about circles And being Too tired to fight About trying to find hope Not knowing If she would fly Then the night The sirens were screaming And I thought That she would stop breathing There in my arms 12 months 4 seasons 3 lives
8.
Circles 07:43
Give me the counsel of fools I find I have no more need for your words And you can stop telling me That everything Is gonna be alright You can stop telling me That everything Will work out fine What do you know of such things Are you telling me or just telling Yourself Give me the counsel of trees They can speak to me without using words And they are not telling me That everything Is gonna be alright They are not telling me That everything Will work out fine What do you know of such things Are you telling me or just telling Yourself You can have your lines Give me circles The lines that you live in You walk by, you stand in The lines you defend Give me circles And cycles And spirals Give me circles Give me circles And rhythms And seasons Give me circles

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released March 2, 2013

Jared Himstedt: vocals, guitars, bass, drums, trumpet, glockenspiel
Cody Green: cello
Ryan Pickop: drums

All songs written by Jared Himstedt
Engineered and recorded by Jared Himstedt at The Pad
Mixed by Tim Jenkins and Jared Himstedt at Silver Shoes
Mastered by Tim Jenkins at Silver Shoes
Cover Art by Colby Crelia
Layout by Jared Himstedt
released on Slow Divide Records

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"...a darkly mood, palpable sadness, deadpan stare, bared nerves, but all with an underlying layer of hopefulness, or at least a hope that being hopeful is possible. And some beautiful harmonies to coax the hope out of its cave." - Monte Holman

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