The First Year

by wild okra

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released March 2, 2013

Jared Himstedt: vocals, guitars, bass, drums, trumpet, glockenspiel
Cody Green: cello
Ryan Pickop: drums

All songs written by Jared Himstedt
Engineered and recorded by Jared Himstedt at The Pad
Mixed by Tim Jenkins and Jared Himstedt at Silver Shoes
Mastered by Tim Jenkins at Silver Shoes
Cover Art by Colby Crelia
Layout by Jared Himstedt
released on Slow Divide Records

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wild okra Waco, Texas

Wild Okra is Jared Himstedt, Tim Jenkins, Chris Mann, Ellie Triplett, Zach Colyer.

"...a darkly mood, palpable sadness, deadpan stare, bared nerves, but all with an underlying layer of hopefulness, or at least a hope that being hopeful is possible. And some beautiful harmonies to coax the hope out of its cave." - Monte Holman ... more

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Track Name: What You Need
Those late night cries
Whose source I cannot find
And your pleading eyes
Asking so much from me
When I should know more
It should be tattooed on my soul
But I just tell you to stop
See I do not have what you need

Inconsolable
Gripping my shirt
I need this not to be
As you gaze around the room
Hoping and waiting for relief
You endure so much
More than anyone should
And I lose my patience
I do not have what you need

You need more from me
I need to be more than I am
Languages I don't speak
That keep me from you
There is darkness and anger
Where patience and tenderness should be
When I look in your eyes I feel inadequate
Not sure where I get
The things I need
To love you

You are calm now
And you're drifting off to sleep
I'm left to deal with my lack
And you offer me relief
Everything is fucked up
And the road ahead is steep
As I fear for the future
I think you might have
What we need
Track Name: Grow Right
We are all full
Reading in silence
In the same room
And she sleeps at peace

This is so full
And implies
So much that I
Want to believe
I want to be true

Clutch my finger
Rub your face
In my beard
We must not despair

We will die
And we might lose
But in this
We must not despair

You are so strong
Came to save us
And we're cutting your head
Open again

So grow right
Little bird
And fly
Track Name: A Lament
Forgive us
The reach of our arms
The size of our hands
We Lament

Forgive us
The length of our stride
The weight of our feet
We Lament

Forgive us
The greed in our eyes
The depth of our gaze
We Lament

Forgive us
The words of our mouths
The shortness of breath
We Lament

Forgive us
The pace of our lives
The hands on our clocks
The reach of our arms
The size of our hands

Forgive us
As we
Forgive
Those
Who
Trespass
Against us
Track Name: Last Fight
I don't know if I have much fight left in me
All escape routes seem closed to me
If there's a way out it's through
A door that I can't find
I don't know how much fight I have left

I don't know how much life will be left to us
All the sacred earth is laid waste for us
There is a place to live but
It's only in my mind
I don't know how much life we have left

There must be a way to find hope for you
I want to believe this world will take care of you
The smallest break a brief glimpse
In the eyes of a child
There must be a way to find hope

Is there some forgiveness left for us
What right do we have to the way prepared for us
In awe of what we've made
We laugh into the wind
I don't know if there's forgiveness left

But will we try
Will we try
Can we walk away
And leave this shit behind
To the woods, to the land
Run screaming but hand in hand
Muster the strength we need
To deal out one more blow
Will we try
Track Name: The Path
There is death I must see
Because I know
Death is not our enemy

There are paths we must walk
Both by night and by day
Where ash that was green
Will soon blow away

There is no straight line
No beginning no end
No fence between waking and dreaming

We will go til we don't
Sun rises and sets
At what point does laughter turn to weeping
And weeping to laughter again

My best to you
Escape if you must
But I think I am home

Death I must see
Death that must find me
Death I must cause
And walk my path to it's end
Track Name: We Will Try
I want to run to the hills
I don't want to run slowly
I want to cut out the parts of me that whine
We cannot do this
Not even together
But we will try
Oh, we will try

I want to wade
In the clear waters
To have my hand held
And my fears shared
We cannot do this
Not even together
But we will try
Oh, we will try

I want to tear
These buildings to rubble
I want to touch the earth
With my own hands
I want to wake up
Early in the morning
To greet the sunrise
And the morning dew

I want to lash out
In furious anger
I want to retreat
In sorrow and shame
I want my friendships
To last forever
I want to live
And then to die

We cannot do this
Not even together
The world goes
Where it will go
We will die separate
And unforgiven
But we will try
Oh, we will try
Track Name: 12 Months
And now we find ourselves here
At the end of the first year
Not knowing what is ahead
Or where to go

12 months
4 seasons
3 lives
How do I breathe life
Into a song
For us

Do I start
With that night
When you couldn't be there
Or that moment
When I held her
Where you could just see her
Or when we wheeled you upstairs
And you held her
For the first time
How to put a year into a song

When they told us
For the first time
It wouldn't be alright
When you said
Strong and committed
You'd be willing to die
Separated day after day
And you told me
You thought you'd go crazy
And I was at home

I wrote about circles
And being
Too tired to fight
About trying to find hope
Not knowing
If she would fly

Then the night
The sirens were screaming
And I thought
That she would stop breathing
There in my arms

12 months
4 seasons
3 lives
Track Name: Circles
Give me the counsel of fools
I find I have no more need for your words

And you can stop telling me
That everything
Is gonna be alright
You can stop telling me
That everything
Will work out fine
What do you know of such things
Are you telling me or just telling
Yourself

Give me the counsel of trees
They can speak to me without using words

And they are not telling me
That everything
Is gonna be alright
They are not telling me
That everything
Will work out fine
What do you know of such things
Are you telling me or just telling
Yourself

You can have your lines
Give me circles
The lines that you live in
You walk by, you stand in
The lines you defend

Give me circles
And cycles
And spirals
Give me circles

Give me circles
And rhythms
And seasons
Give me circles